I remember feeling the fear just thinking that I may one day find myself without someone who will be there with me for life. Becoming single forever. Living alone. On my own. The fear, as I now analyzed was coming from wrong perceptions, and my own concept of single blessedness.
I was 26 when I got married.
Now, it had been 9 years! And guess what?
I am actually looking back and asking myself.. what if I..., what if I hadn’t found the man I would marry, what if I am still single? and am actually excited on the what -ifs! haha.
Coming here, seeing all the possibilities, looking outside the box, Majoy, there is really soooo much more!
Not that I am wanting to be single again.
OK, for a day or two, would really love to be.. hehe see, no kids, no kiddy hubby too! hehe just plain old me spending my time just for me.. kinda all ME, ME, ME!
Had I not married at 26, I know I would be going through the same way you are going through now.. but then again, as you said, in a way you were surprisingly happy of the possibilities.. single and open to see what’s ahead.
I remember, I was once told, the only way for me to see him is for me to ask myself what I really want my man to be.. 3 things.. then, BE that. We attract our thoughts. What we think, we create.
It may take time, but when we become who we really are, we will begin to do what we love to do, and then we will have our heart’s desire.
Believe it.
In the mean time my friend, smile, you have the world in your hands!:)
*written in November, 2009
same here .i was thinking what would I be without a husband .I got married at age 31, divorced at age 33 and got married again at age 37. I never dreamed of growing old alone, so for sure, i will keep marrying again and again just in case.
ReplyDeletespending time with oneself is very beautiful. i've always liked it because it makes me connect with myself more. there's just something about being alone that makes me happy, but it makes me long for people i love as well. :)
ReplyDeleteSometimes things are better left untouched or unaltered. But since we got the concept of mutual existence, being married can be a bliss where you don't entertain an ounce of being alone for even just a split of a second.
ReplyDeleteGreat thoughts here!
Aww. Sometimes I feel that way, I want to be with myself. Before it was just me, hanging out with friends, buying girly stuff. Reminiscing the old days huh.
ReplyDeleteBut I'm not married yet! I have a baby boy who's going 2 years old and his dad with me.
I wonder how will I look like when I get married? Hehe :)
Thanks for this inspirational post. :)
Awww ang ganda ng post. :) Agree with DIMAKS.. Some things are better left unaltered. I'm inspired by this post.. Great points. Wish you all the best <3
ReplyDeleteYes I have the world in my hands! ;) Wow, you were worrying being a alone at a very young age, funny coz since HIgh school I always have a boyfriend till my working days in Makati. Career lead me to this kind of lifestyle i have now and now I'm 35 and still single and still feels like I'm 25 and not even rushing to settle down yet. I still want to enjoy life being single and financially independent and having a boyfriend! Haha ;))
ReplyDeleteI think it's important that people feel already complete before getting marriage. We don't need marriage to feel complete. We are already complete :)
ReplyDeleteMarriage is there to further enhance our existence, not to complete our existence.
im wondering now what dud i be as well if i dent get married before! very inspiring dear! xx
ReplyDeleteaww what would i say! i felt like the letter was written for me and you just spelled my name Mhe-anne into Majoy haha. i am "smart that's why i'm single" (lol) as you know. there are much good to being one, but i also longed to be married to taste a different kind of joy and happiness. so until that happens i will be happy come what may!
ReplyDeleteas long as you live each day focused on God's promise of life everlasting, then everything here on earth becomes non-essential, including marriage ;)
ReplyDeleteReading the first few lines I really wanted to see your husband's expression about you wanting to be single again (for only a day or two, of course.lelz).
ReplyDeleteI guess, I have to enjoy life the way most single (and people who would want to be single again) should. Hehehe
Spending time for one self is just FINE...
ReplyDeleteJust fine to think but maybe difficult to do.
I am married for almost seventeen years and
I want to be alone with myself sometimes...
but knowing that I have my husband who's
so dependable and my kids who bring me joy
beyond compare... i preferred to be around them
the rest of my life.
I could have imagine what's life would be if I'm still single. Probably dating 2 or 3 women perhaps. But there would come a time no matter how fulfilled you are in life, you desire to spend the rest of your life with someone, raise your own family and grow old together. ^_^
ReplyDeleteI totally can relate to this post right now.
ReplyDeleteand I agree with "we attract our thoughts. What we think, we create"
I believe in the law of attraction. thanks for sharing this :)